Colvin，come on！

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        I always feel confused that if i am a sleepyhead coz recently i really sleep a lot.

        Today is June the 4th,on which day 21 years ago i came to life.In my hometown,people celebrate their lunar birthday so i actually don't take today for my birthday before i started to get huge interests in constellation.Because constellation is measured off the Gregorian calendar.A lot of my friends send well-wishings to me,thank u all!

        When i decide to write in English,the content will not be happy or positive.I think only a few friends will be willing to read my English posts,and this is my real purpose.

        Like all the things above are garbage......

        In the past i made great efforts to be offish,for a long long time,i didn't make friends with new people,i didn't attend parties,i abducted myself in a small,black house and refused everything.Reason?Maybe is the scare of being hurt.So i fell in love with lonelyness.I used to be alone.I believe that only oneself can be everlasting,and nothing can be immortal forever......

        Then after several years,my heart starts to get more and more peaceable,i become more positive,optimistic and well-meaning.People say that every one is an apple which is created by god,sometimes i think that i should be an apple,too.Althougt i am not the tenderest or the balmiest one,but i am at least fine.

        So i try to let myself out.I met new people,made a lot of friends,attended parties and in the end,i finally noticed that i've fell for someone...

        Although i know that it is not right to say that everyone's love is an heartbroken thing,but to me that parlance is definitely tenable...

        Time told me that my forepassed decision and action was right.That means i should persist in being an isolationist.Thinking of this right now,i feel much better now.I finally get the idea of how to survive next and to become better and better!I have enough friends,and a happy familly.I don't mean to give up somthing,but i will not abandon myself to feel as if a knife were piercing my heart any more.

        I know i am loving you,deeply...but that's all.I will let you go,straightly from my heart,

        now...

        You don't have to escape as a jailbird,Did having loved me mean a tribulation?